today ♥

somehow i really  like this picture!

today was a very good day ♥

actually i planed to go to the planetarium with three friends but when we went there the tickets were already sold out.. thats why we seperated after taking a last picture.

and because i didnt want the day to end like that and because i actually really wanted to meet him, i went to my friends home. and because i didnt tell him beforehand he was pretty surprised i guess. xD

he was playing an online game with his friend and i was just watching for quite a long time. after that he was skyping with his, i guess, closest friend, which i know as well. and after that, we were just lying on his bed and watched tv while he was sometimes answering his friends.

i thought i had feelings for him but when i thought about it my heart wasnt thumping at all. but i still really, really enjoy spending time with him. i like him very much. <:

before i had to go we took a few pictures. some of them turned out pretty nice i think cc:

still waiting for him to send me all of them. but because i was already able to be and write with him so much i dont want to bother him too much. its nice that this year ends this way. its nice that i got to see him before next year and take the lasts pictures with him.

i'm very happy that i went to his house afterall. 

yay!

today i went to buy some things and afterwards to the hairdresser!

i've got to admit that i got really nervous when i sat down to get the cut because i usually just cut my hair myself somehow and when i went to the hairdresser they never cut my hair like i wanted to expect from when i went to my hometown. afterwards i was usually rather disappointed..

but this time ... i'm totally, toooootally satisfied with the outcome!

i got side bangs, shortened my hair length and added some layers.

looks nice! cc: i didnt expect that this rather short hair would suit me this well hehe.

usually i would have long hair but because i have quiet thin and not many hair i guessed it would be better to shorten them.

a nice start for the new year, i really wanted to do that!

btw. these days i got to write with a person i like. we write actually really much. and its not like i am the only one who thinks of sth to continue our chat.

aww, that makes me happy. c: he makes me happy.

half of the vacations are already over and i nearly didnt start with learning and homeworks.

but today i really dont want to learn!

sitting in my bed already with my guitar beside me. today i'll only play guitar and chill. c:

tomorrow i'll go with two friends to the planetarium because i have some coupons!

looking forward it because, you know i really like the sky and the stars.

and after that .. i really have to  will start with homeworks and so on. (:

thats it.

the next days i'll add a picture because right now i'm on the laptop and

 not on my pc where my photographs are.

♥

suffering

my wisdom tooth got taken out. the process itself didnt hurt much, but now after a few hours past i'm getting pretty hard headaches. i got medicine but i cant take it because it consists lactose. /:

i neve had such a strong headache .. ah its really painful. but thats not what bothers me the most.

the thing is that i think the place where my tooth got taken out was sewed really strange.. i think. hopefully i'm wrong. but i think the way it was sewed hurts the most. 

i wonder if its away by tomorrow. because tomorrow i've actually plant to meet some friends if its getting better. cause there is no way that i'll come spitting blood, having strong headaches and not being able to eat anything. ah i didnt think that it would be such a pain even afterwards. next week my next 2 teeth have to be taken out ..

please let the way he sewed be "normal" it would be too troublesome if not .. 

btw. one more thing.

the moon tonight is really, really beautiful. it shines so much and the few stars i can see around him are beautiful. i wish i could always see the pretty starry sky.

and not just sometimes from my balcony..

no picture today. ;;

sigh*

my mom making food for me- yummy~ 

everytime i sight it really seems like i'm ageing (?).

and with sighing i dont mean like heaving a sight of relief.

i always feel bad afterwards. do you know that feeling?

but sometimes its inevitable because i am doing it spontanious without thinking :c

sick and tired

am i the only one who have to TRY to approach you?

why is it always me who have to come to you, who have to find a topic to talk to, to laugh to

why dont you come once

its because you dont want me to read your mind?

so should i stop doing that? do you even know why i am doing that?

it's because i worry about you, because i care!

i'm really getting tired of this. i dont have the patience for this. it does hurt me, too, okey?

always thinking about how you could feel, but i dont want to.

cant i be a bit egoistic once?

why is it always me who have to bare it, who have to be kind and smile?

i dont want to anymore.

<:

pretty, isn't it? haha

bought me the novel "l change the world" '_______'

i almost finished reading it. gosh i'm so in love with it and the live action movie ♥

it's really, really awesome! i recommend it highly! <:

later i'll go to a little birthday party withan overnight stay. we'll make a movie night (?) <:

i hope it'll be fun. i'm looking forward it! but today in the morning i ate sth i shouldnt have .. but i've still got a bit time for my tummy to rest. c:

..

cute little birdy!

how can she always be kind to everyone ??

i tried to be kind as well, but the other person seems to be hatiing !! me. i smiled and laughed at her but now she responds so aggresive LOL. should i just bear it?

those things actually pretty hurt me. and make me angry as well.

i don't want to feel those negative feelings. ; A ;

got to do my homework now.. but instead of that i'm discussing with her. why cant she be a bit nicer to me, like she is to the others. she used to be kind to me as well WTF.

ok .. just bear  it?