:x

how can i be so selfish and jealous.. /:

 i don't understand myself for those negative feelings. i really hate that. i don't want to think bad about friends. i want to cheer with my friends even if i myself have got a hard time.

it's not the princip if i'm happy, you can be happy, if i'm sad you have to be sad as well.

i really hate that. 

how can my heart be so ugly sometimes?

brrr

its so cold i swear!! TT
got to go out and learn with my friend now |: aww

got 33 followers!

so randrom haha sorry. 

like the colors. they match so prettily  ♥

don't.

i shouldn't expect someone to understand me.

don't even hope for it. 

just don't.

ah

i want to be able to fight with a friend as well.. cause i think thats what friendship is about. fighting, making up, getting closer.. i really envy those people. but to be honest i 'never' had a real fight. i dont even want to urge and only try to prevent fights. always thinking about, how the other person could react on my actions.

aah. kokoro connect is an awesome anime. i love those kinds of animes, and the story is awesome. true friendship..thats what i wish for.

aww

my friend just told me sth super, super nice.  

she said that i would make a good impression at first sight .. and that i'm charasmatic!!

no one ever told me that.

ok.. super rdm stuff, but it just made me happy. haha

♪

sungha jung, my idol and my inspiration!

in order to meet him again, and become someone i've got to practice more and more!

it's my goal to make him remember me.

cc:

i just found this emoticon.

ρ(｀Д´o【｡☆ｆｉｇｈｔ!!☆｡】o｀Д´)９

isnt it cute? hahah love the smiley's expressions.
fighting!!

phew

my lack of confidence kills me. really.

i dont know what i should think. whats right or wrong. why doesnt anybody help me?

doushite.
it's like no one appreciates my efforts.
i hate that. i really do.

its to much

its too much. its too hard to bring the strength up and laugh everything away.

i'm sick of acting. no one knows how i feel, how hurt i am.

in the end.. if i really need someone, no one's there.

- sometimes i wish to have a heart of stone.