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just again i saw some pictures of friends and their friends having fun and so on.
seeing them so happy even if they, too, got their own styles and are a bit different from the norm, they still seem to enjoy their live so much. i really, really envy them for that.
because every single, little thing can hurt me.. i have to learn to differentiate between the things that are important to me.
even if i know that it makes no sense to think about this or that i still do it.. and that's really horrible.
i just don't want that. it's good for nothing and just makes yourself down.
yes, i know that. i know it. but still.. my heart feels so heavy.

i want to be confident.