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today i didn't go to school because i felt sick. to be honest i have problems with my digestion for already a half year but i never went to a docter because i hate to go there.. i only go there for inoculations !!
but today i finally went to a docter.. i just got an appointment for the next week but i hope that they can help me.. ; A ; it's such a huge problem that i'm even afraid to go out for more than a day .. sounds ridiculous, mhm? but it's true.. .___.

nevertheless i have to learn for my history exam tomorrow. please wish me luck~

<(๑ﾟ∀ﾟ๑)/

school was fuun and all the people seemed to be so friendly towards me.  
i laughed a lot and i could speak normally with everyone. 
i even telephoned (?) with a friend for 2 hours. (we made math homework..)

hope tomorrow will be a good day as well but i'm a bit afraid 'cause tomorrow we have sport and i really haaaate sport in shool !! ><

but still i'll try to give my best ♪

now i have to do some homework...  ; __ ;

aargh, i rlly like this one ♥
i know nobody will steal this but somhow i want to put a sign on it to be on the safe side..
but i dont want to because that would look so wannabe.. >:

(:

today i met two of my friends. we went shopping and made some photos. ~
it was pretty fun. especially because i was able to speak kinda normal to one of them and thats not that usual for me 'cause i tend to speak strange (for instance in a higher voice) to people i'm not in thaaat a good relationship with. (i wonder if i can formulate it like that..)

i'm happy about every improvment of mine. ♥

buuuut (!)
this weekend is gonna be an event i'm going to with friends and i have to organize everything ..
and because it stresses me and some of them still are goofing around, it really annoys me!

tomorrow school starts again .. i hope i can be/ pretend to be happy and so on because i already decided to change and not be in a bad mood there anymore.

nevertheless here is a photo which i made today.
i really, really love the sky.

laazy

good morning minna~
today i woke up at 5.30 (!) and thats pretty early for me. normally i would wake up at about 9 o'clock.
 i've got sooo much homework to do but i just don't want to do them.
(no matter how bored i am i would never do any homework!)
+ i still have to learn for exams & do sth. for my mum ...
.. and she just came and told me some MORE things to do. aaah i hate it ><

besides i feel so bad because i didn't go jogging. don't misunderstand me. i never go jogging or do some kinds of sport but lately i want to do sth for my looks and health..

anyways .. i have to start with my work now... ; ___ ;

konbanwa~

okay, here it is: my first entry.
to be honest i dont know what i'm doing here but i think i'm just going to use this as a diary, becuase nobody would read this anyways.. TT

anyways.
my first and most important goals are:
to change myself.
to overcome my shyness.
to act like i am.
to be myself.

and from today on i'll just post my improvements, doubts, joys, sorrows, excitements.. just everything.

but if someone is really reading this blog, i apologize for any grammatik and spelling mistakes.

that's it for today so.. good night!

sunset ♥